Today, I had a meal with a few colleagues who started working with me. We also had the first beer of early summer.
There were four people, three of them were technical, and one was in management. Currently, it seems that the one in management is doing the best, while I am doing poorly. My position is still at the bottom, and the work I do is invisible to the leaders. But when I think about it, there are still many people who haven't been with the company for as long as I have. It's better than some and worse than others.
I can't help but feel a bit sad. Now I'm starting to describe myself as "doing poorly". I used to have ambitions, but in recent years, I've become more and more depressed. Maybe my abilities are really not good enough! Being criticized by leaders for a long time, I feel like this is how it is.
Looking at the people around me, there are many who are doing well and many who are not. It's just that the current department is lifeless and lacks any vitality. Hardworking people don't get any benefits, while those who don't work well get promoted quickly!
But currently, I can't change this social atmosphere. Everyone just wants to live their own lives well. This is a social problem, but I am powerless to solve it. Everyone has chosen to escape and continue to live in mediocrity!